If Life Is So Short

Isn't it funny how time seems to slip away so fast
One minute you're happy, the other you're sad
But if you give me one more chance
To show my love for you is true
I'll stand by your side your whole life through

If life is so short
Why don't you let me love you
Before we run out of time If love is so strong
Why won't you take the chance
Before our time has gone
If life is so short, if life is so short

Love is a word that explains how I feel for you
And when you're in my arms, all my dreams come true
And when you're not around
You can't hardly see
These tears that I'm crying now are for you to be with me

This song from Moffats used to be one of my and my friends' favorite boy band song way back highschool. That was like more than 10 years ago. Since then, I really never heard the song being played until today. Oh, by the way, I searched and played it myself in Youtube. I don't know. After being stunned by some news these past few days, I feel like I wanna look back and see how unpredictable life is. One may be so alive and kicking now; then suddenly, everything around becomes total darkness.

Whenever I watch TV, read the net, get a call or receive a text that someone is not doing well, or even worse, someone wasn't able to make it, it's like I'm being stubbed on the chest, being thrown in an awful time machine and being carried back to my life's most painful day - when I lost my father. Oh yes, there's always this "flashback", never missed a single moment. The feeling is hell. It's a complete torture. And I hate it.

Time is so fast. Life is so short. And with that, Bo Sanchez is always so right. Nothing is far better than to live like a dying man. At 26, I'm quite unsure yet if my existence has ever been worthy. In some aspects maybe. For now, I hear the clock ticking still. I feel my heart beating still. Any moment, all might stop, even the earth's revolving.

Am I living my life to the fullest? This time....I'm trying, happily trying.....